My ADD life

It was brought to my attention that I have not posted here for awhile. I guess that’s because my interested has changed and drifted off to other things. Or it could be because I’m busy. It seems like I’m always busy, busy at work, at home and at play. Yes I am busy playing. Currently “Skyrim” on the PS4. I am absolutely obsessed. If you know the game I’m playing a female Kajaiit archer build soon to be assassin. Love the stories and challenging myself to stand still with an arrow loaded and wait. It’s so hard for me to sit still. I also have started using the app and website Habitica . It’s a program for goal setting and habit forming that makes your life a game. It’s hard to explain but if you like gaming and want to get some order to your life check it out. So far it has helped me start cleaning out my stuff. I declutter 10 minutes a day and clean 15. That does not sound like much but they are both very concentrated and I can see a difference. Besides I was doing nothing befor...

Been awhile since I wrote and today seemed like a good day. I am on my way to the beach with my good friend. The ride so far has been very good for me. We were able to talk about things we have in common some good and some bad. Its amazing when in life you find someone that you have a real connection with. I am not talking about a sexual thing but more of a mental thing. Gwen and I seem to have that. Never in my life have I met someone that in the first meeting I felt as if I had known them all my life. Again we seem to have that going for us. I feel as if I can tell her anything and I will not be judged. Since losing mother I have felt so lost as if my life has been turned upside down. My life is right now in great turmoil and I am making changes. Some think I am insane in the changes being made but some think it is past time for that. I know that for me my life must change or I will drown in unhappiness. I may be screwing my life up, and if I do that is on me,...

Mona also was a teacher and a friend. She was around when I was in the 6 th grade. She was our Music teacher. She instilled in me a love of music. Until I met her I had no idea that I could sing. I fell in love with singing with a little help. She also gave me the first lessons in self esteem. Until I met her I felt very little worth. I remember the first time she called me a nut and I was so hurt. Her response was “Nuts grow on trees, trees are part of nature, and God made all of nature”. She was the first to make me understand that ALL things made by God are beautiful.

Today’s woman use to be a big part of my life, her name is Barbara. She is my ex’s (Cheryl) mother. I know you are not supposed to like your Mother-in-Law but I did. Barbara ran what we lovingly referred as the Dunwoody humane society and home for wayward homosexuals. There were five people (four of which were gay), six dogs and usually a cat or two living in one house with Barbara being the house mother. She took care of us and we took care of her. I learned that not all parents reject their gay children and some even welcomed friends and partners of their gay children. I miss our talks and our laughs. I learned that it’s ok to be a woman on your own and that you don’t have to have a man around unless you enjoy his company. When Dawn and I got together I sort of lost contact with Cheryl and her Mom and I regret that because I do miss Barbara and I miss her as a Mother.

Today’s topic; my sister Angela. If anyone had told me thirty some odd years ago that we would be friend I would have laughed at you. When we were younger we fought all the time. We played tricks on each other and told on each other. At one time I thought I hated her. I am not sure when all of that changed but it did. When I was in my twenties I know I did not communicate much with her. This was mainly because I was too caught up in my Lesbian life. After I met Dawn, Angela and Dawn seem to become friends. When we decided to have a Holy Union we invited her (we thought she understood our relationship and somewhat supported it), this set our relationship back several years as she was very against what we were doing. It took many more years for the relationship to repair itself. Now though I think we get along great. When we are together we laugh till we cry and we tell each other our sad stories. I know that she is going through tough times and I wish I could help her. I am thankful tha...

My women for the day are my best friend, partner, lover and soul mate. Dawn and I met at MCC Church in Atlanta in 1990. For me it was love at first sight. We still talk about our first date and laugh until we cry over the memories of that night (it’s too much to get into right now, remind me later). We have been though some really hard times that included being unemployed, sickness, deaths and separations. We also have had some really good times like, vacations, Holy Unions, our animals (or our children) and being together. She has taught me much over the years and I have taught her. We decided that one of my callings from God is to be her spouse, because had I not been there she would not be here today. She knows me better than myself sometimes (which can be scary) and can read me like a book. Without her I feel very incomplete. So this blog I dedicate to her. The she in me.

Just wanted to share something I found about my name. HowManyOfMe.com There are people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

Many think I am not old, I'm 46. I am just now beginning to think maybe I'm older than I thought. I have been sick with an upper respitory infection. When I was younger (and drank a lot more) if I felt a cold or something coming on I would drink a little Nyquil go to bed early and be fine the next day. Now I end up going through 2 bottles of Nyquil sleep for a few DAYS and then end up going to the doctor. Colds and flus wipe me out now. They take everything out of me. I have coughed so much in the last week that my neck hurts and my upper stomach muscles ache. The worse part of this is that before any of this happened I found my first gray hair. I'm sure that by next week I will die of old age.

I have not written in a few days because of sickness in the family. I have found that in a household if you are use to a certain amont of work from each person and someone is sick or not there your work increases. Now I know this is something that sounds like I should know but still. So the flu has struck our house and I have been busier than normal. So today I will again cover three things. One: the movie Julie & Julia . We watched it yesterday and it was much better than I thought it would be. It was funny (not like rolling in the floor funny more like laugh out loud funny), and intersting. I was very jelous that her blog did so much better than mine, but I was told it was because of content. Second: " The principal of St. John's Lutheran School was fired this weekend for espousing the shocking doctrine that maybe the church is in error and men don't have total authority over women."  I get so tired of this. For years men used the Bible to supress womens rig...

Saturday we went somewhere new. Let me say this does not happen often. We (Dawn and I) get in ruts, just like many people. Anyway last week we learned about a museum in of all places Gray Tennessee. I had only heard of Gray because I did a job up there. So this museum is the Natural History Museum at the Gray Fossil Site.  This is a great site and was very interesting. We paid the $10 for the tour and had access to everything at the museum. Our tour guide Ryan was great he was very informative and pointed out a lot of cool things about the site. We were able to go down fairly close to the pits where they were digging. I learned that at one time Shovel-tusked elephants roamed this area as well as saber tooth cats. It is just so hard to imagine. All of the fossils on the site go back to the Miocene era which is 4.5 - 7 million years. They also had a great dinosaur display set up (that will leave in May). Being a Christian sometimes I have a hard time wrapping my mind around the proce...