My ADD life

Two post, one day, Wow that’s a record for me. I have several people in my life that always say I want to write a book. I say “Bully for them”. I myself have never had that desire. So why have a blog. To be completely honest I don’t know. I guess as an outlet. I don’t usually journal because I have had my journals read and my privacy invaded so why do it. It’s easier and safer to just keep it in your head. So now why blog. I guess it’s because I WANT people to read what I write. I want people to comment. I want my thoughts to matter in the universe. I hate paying attention to punctuation and verbiage (which is why I don’t write a book). I quite writing on the blog because no one looked and no one cared. I may stop again for that reason but for now I write to put my energy somewhere other than in my head.

Mona also was a teacher and a friend. She was around when I was in the 6 th grade. She was our Music teacher. She instilled in me a love of music. Until I met her I had no idea that I could sing. I fell in love with singing with a little help. She also gave me the first lessons in self esteem. Until I met her I felt very little worth. I remember the first time she called me a nut and I was so hurt. Her response was “Nuts grow on trees, trees are part of nature, and God made all of nature”. She was the first to make me understand that ALL things made by God are beautiful.

Julia C is a teacher I had in Elementary school. I just loved/hated her. She was very strict and that is what I hated, because lets face it even then I was lazy. She however, saw through that and helped me see that science was not “bad”. She also fostered in me a love for science fiction and showed me that the imagination could take you anywhere. She helped me learn to cope with my abuse issues, though I never knew that until years later.

The Wise woman is actually Deborah Thompson-Wise and she is one of my mentors in EFM (Education for Ministry). I knew her before EFM but have gotten to know her much better since then. DTW as she signs is a wonderful person. She has taught me more about the Bible, religion, and theology than any pastor or priest ever has. Her insight into the spiritual world is amazing. I wish everyone could learn from her. She has shown me how to give a quite caring for those around you. She has shown me in many ways that I am stronger than I ever thought. She is truly the “Wise Woman”.

Marita is an Angel. She is what I like to call Jesus here on Earth. I have known her for three years and each year I learn more and more about her. I see the love and compassion she has for others and it makes me want, no desire, to be more like her. She has taught me how one person can do so much and yet take so little credit. She has helped me see the beauty in the earth through pictures. She has helped me get excited about life when all I wanted to do was give up on life. She has helped me see the love and commitment that Dawn and I have for each other. In a word she has been my savior many times.

Gayle was the Priest at the first Episcopal Church I attended on a regular basis. She was also the priest that I went through my confirmation with. She helped me see that God does not hold grudges. At the time I was in a low spiritual spot and would not take communion and she said “if you go to a guests house and they prepare a meal don’t you think it would be rude to not eat”. She made spiritual things seem easy to understand. She was and I am sure she still is a great Priest. Her sermons made me sit up and take notice as I always learned something from them. So to her I say thank you for leading me back to God. Thank you for being there when I needed guidance and leadership.

So it’s women history month and on the way home yesterday I started thinking about products for women. It started when I was watching a women walk in front of my car with these shoes that were spiked and pointy. In my head I thought “you know some man had to come up with that idea because no women would think of that torture”. That led me to thinking about dresses and how I hate them but some women love them and this led to how at one time all people, including men wore dresses (You can see the ADD working in my brain). I wondered when this just became a women thing. Then I went back to the shoes and thought you know if the shoe hurts why wear it. I mean if my feet hurt I am so miserable. If I don’t like what I wear I am miserable. However, being short and rotund, most clothes are not made for me. I really like sticking to my jeans (or khakis if at work) and tees (or golf shirts at work). I should not, although, think ill of those women who do like the fashion they wear. I just don’t u...

For those of you concerned thank you. I feel much better today. I think I needed a day of rest. My soul needs down time and I have not had that in a few weeks. Today I slept till 9 played my game (Wizard 101), read and above all got a hair cut. A hair cut may seem like a small thing but to me it is the best feeling in the world. I don't go to some fancy parlor and pay a huge amount, I just go to the cheapest place. It is the act of having the hair removed that is the difference. To me its like the cares of my life being trimmed off. It sound stupid when I say it out loud but its how I feel. So the other thing is this book I am reading "When Women were Warriors Book 1" by Catherine M. Wilson. I really like it. The story follows this young women who goes to a land away from her family and is companioned with a warrior. It's their story and how they are from two different worlds and yet they come to trust each other and count on each other. There is a passage in the...

I had to spend three days recently in a hospital with my mother who had a stroke. While in there with her I realized, or should I say it was made clearer, that my mother is a bitter old woman. She puts on an act for many so they don't see it. The bad thing is that my sister, who is already under a large amount of stress, takes the brunt of mothers meaness. I don't get as much because I am out of town. I hate it though because I sometimes find myself afarid I will end up like her. So today I saw the quote from below and decided I needed to read this everyday and try and change my attitude about life. So here I go changing again. Stay tuned and hold on. "May today there be peace within you. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith and belief in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with ...

For those of my readers that have clean houses and their life is in order this post is not for you. I do not keep a clean house. In fact most days I can't see any horizontal surface in my house. We never have people over unless they give a two week notice (so we can clean). So a friend of mine told me about a web page called flylady.net . We had already decided that this was the year to clean out our lives, both physically and mentally. So we decided we would check out the site. We are on day six and so far things are going well. I have cleaned the sink every night (except Sunday). I have dressed to the shoes everyday (again except for Sunday). Tonight I did 5 minutes in Zone 1 hot spot and did a load of laundry. This may seem like something normal people do but not me. I have come to realize that I am basically a lazy person. I will always take the easy way out. However I also know that I miss having people over. I miss being able to find things when I need them. I hate finding ou...

I am amazed that the South still is as closed minded as it is. I was born in the South and really have no desire to live anywhere else. Having said that this region of the country is constantly embarassing me. Now before I go and upset a bunch of people let me say I know this is the "Bible Belt". So what do I speak of? I'm talking about Constance McMillen  and the cancellation of her prom all because she wanted to bring her girlfriend and wear a tux. Rather than face the issue and try and solve the problem the school system decides to ruin everyone fun. The bad thing is that everyone knows why they cancelled the dance. Now let me just say that being gay and a teenager is hard enough but being gay in a small southern town has got to be hell. I know it was for me. I have to applaude this girl and her would be date for at least standing up and having a voice. I know this will not be easy for her but in many ways she is paving the way for others.

Just to show how out of touch with my feminist side I just read where it's Nation Women History Month. I didn't even know there was such a thing. However, I think it's really cool. I guess I don't think about it much because I work almost with all men. I sometimes forget that there are women out there that are strong. After reading Erins' post on her blog it started me thinking who are some strong women that do or have inspired me.  The first woman I thought of was Xena but I think that is more of a lust situation and not a inspiring thing. Then I though about Ashley Judd and all the work she has done for HIV teens and how I read she was back at school just so she could speak better on the topic. The second person I thought of was Sandra Bullock. Even though I think she is so hot I also think that she is a very genuine person. She has achieved an amount of fame and yet she appears to be the same as she has always been. I like that she is so down to earth and carin...