My ADD life

Life. My God when it’s going good things feel good, tension is easy, and life can be laughed at. But oh crap let it be going crazy and it’s like a carnival ride. The sad thing is that life is like that ride 99% of the time. What makes us who we are is how we deal with it. I don’t seem to be doing so well lately. My stress level is high, I seem to be anger ridden, and my poor ADD mind is jumping from one thing to another. I have learned that as a person with ADD I need, no I have to have structure. Without it I have no focus, I have no memory, and I have no idea of my life’s purpose. I don’t usually create day, week, year or lifetime goals because I never know where my brain will take me. I try and have habits and structure so that I can “live” my life. Meaning I do what I have to do to make it to work and home and then to bed for the next day. Lately my life has been thrown in chaos. Not that this is bad it’s just hard. It’s because of circumstances beyond my control. It may end up...

Two post, one day, Wow that’s a record for me. I have several people in my life that always say I want to write a book. I say “Bully for them”. I myself have never had that desire. So why have a blog. To be completely honest I don’t know. I guess as an outlet. I don’t usually journal because I have had my journals read and my privacy invaded so why do it. It’s easier and safer to just keep it in your head. So now why blog. I guess it’s because I WANT people to read what I write. I want people to comment. I want my thoughts to matter in the universe. I hate paying attention to punctuation and verbiage (which is why I don’t write a book). I quite writing on the blog because no one looked and no one cared. I may stop again for that reason but for now I write to put my energy somewhere other than in my head.

It was brought to my attention that I have not posted here for awhile. I guess that’s because my interested has changed and drifted off to other things. Or it could be because I’m busy. It seems like I’m always busy, busy at work, at home and at play. Yes I am busy playing. Currently “Skyrim” on the PS4. I am absolutely obsessed. If you know the game I’m playing a female Kajaiit archer build soon to be assassin. Love the stories and challenging myself to stand still with an arrow loaded and wait. It’s so hard for me to sit still. I also have started using the app and website Habitica . It’s a program for goal setting and habit forming that makes your life a game. It’s hard to explain but if you like gaming and want to get some order to your life check it out. So far it has helped me start cleaning out my stuff. I declutter 10 minutes a day and clean 15. That does not sound like much but they are both very concentrated and I can see a difference. Besides I was doing nothing befor...