My ADD life

So here I am again a frustrated bundle of anger. This seems to happen a lot lately. It usually always has to do with my frustration over miscommunications. I say something and the other person does not understand. The other person says something, and just to be clear I repeat it back to them only to find out that’s not what they said. Now I don’t know if this is an age thing, an ADD thing or an I’m just losing my ability to communicate. Whatever it is it frustrates the crap out of me. As an example: For my job I design using computer aided drafting (CAD). Today I was given instructions on drawing a piece of equipment and my boss and I were looking at the paper and I said so you want me to put the pole here and drew a dot on the sheet, he agreed and I went off to draw. When I took it back in there he said I did it wrong and that you could not put a pole there and acted like I was an idiot. When I showed him the mark up he just said I misunderstood. Now if this was a onetime thing I ...

Many think I am not old, I'm 46. I am just now beginning to think maybe I'm older than I thought. I have been sick with an upper respitory infection. When I was younger (and drank a lot more) if I felt a cold or something coming on I would drink a little Nyquil go to bed early and be fine the next day. Now I end up going through 2 bottles of Nyquil sleep for a few DAYS and then end up going to the doctor. Colds and flus wipe me out now. They take everything out of me. I have coughed so much in the last week that my neck hurts and my upper stomach muscles ache. The worse part of this is that before any of this happened I found my first gray hair. I'm sure that by next week I will die of old age.

Saturday we went somewhere new. Let me say this does not happen often. We (Dawn and I) get in ruts, just like many people. Anyway last week we learned about a museum in of all places Gray Tennessee. I had only heard of Gray because I did a job up there. So this museum is the Natural History Museum at the Gray Fossil Site.  This is a great site and was very interesting. We paid the $10 for the tour and had access to everything at the museum. Our tour guide Ryan was great he was very informative and pointed out a lot of cool things about the site. We were able to go down fairly close to the pits where they were digging. I learned that at one time Shovel-tusked elephants roamed this area as well as saber tooth cats. It is just so hard to imagine. All of the fossils on the site go back to the Miocene era which is 4.5 - 7 million years. They also had a great dinosaur display set up (that will leave in May). Being a Christian sometimes I have a hard time wrapping my mind around the proce...

What you ask does that mean. Simply "don't ask don't tell". For those of you living under a rock for several years that is the military's answer to gays and lesbian serving in the miltary. When this issue first came up many years ago I had the same responce as I do today.... Why? Can these men and women not defend and die for their country just like a straight person, or a black person, or a jewish person. I really think that the major problem here is that the military is a manily male run organization and lets face it men think that all women and any gay man would be attracted to them. They are so afraid that the man in their unit would make a pass at them that they can't see allowing them in. I did read one article  in Think Progress that stated: "– 60% of Iraq and Afghanistan veterans believe that being gay or lesbian “has no bearing on a service member’s ability to perform their duties.” Only 29% disagree. – 73% of Iraq and Afghanistan veterans say i...

My mind sometimes get stuck on something and I just can't get it to leave. For the last month or so I have been very depressed. Some of that comes from the fact that I seem to always be in pain. I don't want to go to the doctor because I really don't think they can do anything. I mean it's just part of growing old. The other part of my depression is my life. I have recently started watching the show "Legend of the Seeker". It's a great show and is right up my alley. It has the knights of the round table feel but also the "Lord of the Rings" magic and mission. In the show the characters all have a destiny that they must fulfill. They have a purpose. They know why they are here. I have been questioning that lately. Why am I here? Should I have already accomplished something? Does my life have meaning? Does my life have value?

Ok so for those of us that work an typical week Friday is usually our best day. My job is very stressful and sometimes Fridays are the worst. We work on deadlines and usually those come on this day. Anyway, today was not to bad. I was able to stay ahead of the game and there was no major bomb that hit. So I was driving home in the rain trying to decide what to write, when I came across some kids out on a rope swing in the rain. They looked as if they could have cared less that it was pouring rain. This made me think about two of the times I also played out in the rain. One was when I was really young, around first grade I think, and I was at my babysitters house. Both my parents worked so I would stay at this ladies house when they were at work (for the life of me I can't remember her name). Anyway when it rained she had this big box of old clothes that she would let us dress up in. I was small for my age so most of the items were way to big for me. Anyway we would strip down to ...