My ADD life

Forgiveness, a word I have never truly understood. According to the dictionary it means: to give up resentment or to cease to feel resentment against. Resentment is defined as: a feeling of indignant displeasure or persistant ill will at something regarded as a wrong, insult, or injury. Sounds so simple. The problem is that is runs deeper than that. If I am in a theater and the person behind me kicks my seat and says I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do that I can easily say no problem and think just don’t do it again. If my partner makes me mad about something and says she sorry I just get over being mad (sometimes this may take a little time) I look at the big picture and say no problem. If someone does something that I have asked them not to do again I get mad and will eventually say no problem. So why talk about my problem with forgiveness? Here is where I have a problem, it’s the big things. Lets take two things going on in my life right now. Someone in my life sent an email that should ...

Well maybe not cow maybe just Holy week. I must admit that my faith has not been where it needs to be for this very special week. Not only did I not do anything for Lent I just have not been as excited about this week as I usually am. I have gone through periods in my life where I question my faith and maybe thats where I am. I really think its more than that. I know that there are things going on in the Church where I attend that really bother me. Don't get me wrong I love my Church and the people in it. I just don't like it right now. I know that there is not a Church or really any community of people that is perfect. I also know that the church is not my only way to God. It is however where I choose to worship. If I am not able to worship there any more than it may be time to change. I just am not ready to leave. We just recently called a new Rector and I am praying that some of the difficulties I am feeling will end soon.