I always start here

I have never been much on journaling so every blog I have started ends up dying. Today I decided I would keep this blog no matter. I mean it's not geared toward any one thing and it can just be about me and my head.

Today my head is strongly in a movie I watched yesterday called "Loving Annabelle". I can not get this out of my head. In many ways it parralles my own experience and yet is totally different. My main complaint about this movie is that like many Lesbian movies it does not have a happy ending. It's no wonder that youg gay and lesbian people grow up thinking that they have to constantly switch partners. I mean if your life is always going to be one heart ache after another why work at it.

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