ENOUGH

Enough already! I have always heard the God would not put more on you than you can handle. SO STOP IT ALREADY, I CAN”T BREATH ANYMORE, I CAN’T TAKE ANYMORE; BACK OFF. I don’t know if I was heard, no one listens to me anyway why should God. I really do feel as though the elephant is on my chest. I can no longer breath, I just want to sit and cry. In my family I have to be the one in control because I am the only one that is either no mad or will see things as they really are. My mother will only do things at the threat of me being call or me going there. My spouse is without a job and sleeps all day and stays up late playing. Bill collectors are calling and telling me I’m late. Friends make me feel bad for being firm with my family and telling them to buck up. My boss always finds fault and never praises. My house is a total mess. If there were a fire we would die because we could not get out. It looks a lot like those hoarder shows or something from “Clean House”. And then you have the small things like I need a haircut, last weekend I slept 4 hours in three days on top of sitting in a hospital those three days then had to drive three hours home, I found out I have a place on my neck that is skin cancer, my joints all hurt. I really just can’t take one more thing….. I will end it if I have to. I mean I am being buried alive as it is.

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  1. Barbara MosleyFebruary 18, 2011 at 7:30 PM

    Karen, I hope life has improved in the last day or so. Bless your heart! You really are slammed! I'm praying that the peace of God surrounds and keeps you and that the Holy Spirit fills you to overflowing with all you need to make it through each day.

    On a practical side: 1) Have you talked to your dr about your depression and place on your neck? 2) What about hooking up with our friend, Flylady, again? I'm going to thanks to your much earlier post. Being ADD myself sometimes having a "system" or plan works best. What I'm doing know definetly isn't. ha--well, maybe not "ha".

    You and your family are in my prayers. I will also put you on the school and church prayer lists. (Just as Karen and life struggles--no personal info.)

    Bobbi

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