I know that many people are affected by the sun, weather and
seasons. I may be to some extent but I would never know. See I am a cubite. For
those that don’t know what that is, I dwell in a cubicle all day. I do not see
natural sunlight, I do not know the weather. My office is an open hole with
skylights in a concrete building. But you have skylights you say. No we had to
cover those because it caused sunlight to hit our computer screens which caused
us not to be able to see. So unless I get up from my desk and walk to the front
of the building I never know what goes on outside. In the winter I get here in
darkness and leave in darkness. Because I don’t have loads of money I eat lunch
at my desk, so therefore I only see the outside when I go up front (which is
not often). My point here is that my bosses love the “open feel” of our office.
Really it’s not open as much as it is that they can see what everyone is doing.
I only bring this up because since the beginning of the year it has either been
raining, snowing or just gloomy almost every day, especially the weekend. So I
was standing at the front of the office looking out at the blue sunny sky and
watching the birds fly around. I sometimes really miss that.
You have asked for my forgivness
Forgiveness, a word I have never truly understood. According to the dictionary it means: to give up resentment or to cease to feel resentment against. Resentment is defined as: a feeling of indignant displeasure or persistant ill will at something regarded as a wrong, insult, or injury. Sounds so simple. The problem is that is runs deeper than that. If I am in a theater and the person behind me kicks my seat and says I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do that I can easily say no problem and think just don’t do it again. If my partner makes me mad about something and says she sorry I just get over being mad (sometimes this may take a little time) I look at the big picture and say no problem. If someone does something that I have asked them not to do again I get mad and will eventually say no problem. So why talk about my problem with forgiveness? Here is where I have a problem, it’s the big things. Lets take two things going on in my life right now. Someone in my life sent an email that should
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